Just A Single Voice *

he’s sweet he’s funny he appreciates music as much as i do and know it well and plays an instrument and is practically my biggest relatable fan. and he doesnt let me walk all over him its perfect. but you ruin EVERYTHING. I compare everyone to you. everyone. every guy ive ever considered gets lined up next to you and you always win by default on the count of the fact that im in absolute undeniable all conquering love with you you fucking shit head. then i doubt him and narrow my standards and i still like him . but im still hurt because i want you.. and i think he senses my unsurity and feels insecure and gets a little upset. but i really like this guy. i hate you damnit why does this happen to me. 

i never forget. I just push it to the furthest corner of my mind … looking back everyday. but it stays there. Youre such a jerk. You know. I know you know. but you stay there. Why. I cant stand you .. I cant freaking stand you . I wish i never knew you. I wish I never took that chance. I wish half of that bullshit never happened cause I wouldnt have developed these stupid ass feelings that never freaking go away. and the funniest thing about it is that I know youre an asshole and I know I deserve better but you’re still absolutely perfect to me. How does that shit even work i dont understand  why doesnt your heart listen to your head Do you know how much easier my life would be if that was possible   or how easy my life would be if I could just get my way once?   everything always goess so wrong and i cant stand it. I ddeal with most of it pretty well though… but Id give anything to get what I want right now. you    you you and only you . 

(Source: turtle-bod)

I miss you more than I have ever missed anyone.  When I see you, you totally make my day. Our conversations are always hilarious  . And I always seem to find myself venting to you about things i dont even tell my best friends. I tell you about what Im afraid of and things that people try to help me with but cant because they dont get me, but somehow unlike everyone else that says they “understand”, you actually mean it. Im so comfortable when Im with you and yet you’re my biggest fear. I guess without knowing I gave you the power to make me the happy and at the same time, the power to hurt me like no one else can. I trusted you not make me regret it in the past but you did it anyway. And for some stupid reason Im still here. I dont trust you anymore. But Im still here. Im spent so much time trying to figure out why. I used to use the word love freely in past relationships, but Im trying my best not to anymore. Though Im sure that this is it, I cant get myself to say it because I dont want to say something that isnt proven to be true just yet and watch my words crumble in my face. All I know is since our experience together I compare every guy that I get involved with to you and somehow you always end up the better catch. I dont understand sometimes. But then I remember, even though youre a fucking jerkoff, no one ever makes me laugh at the stupid things they say the way you can. No one has a smile like yours. And no one ever made me feel as amazing as you did just by a compliment or two. And I have yet to find someone with such an amazing heart, that although you fuck up, always stays pure and admirable to me. No matter how hard I try to forget it I cant. Signs have been coming left & right that this isnt finished and the way I felt before is doubled. Ive had my fare amounts of warnings by the people who dont want to see me hurt but my feelings seem to be stronger than my fear.  I cant seem to get my legs to move enough to run away from you because I wont leave without my heart but Im starting to believe that youre going to have it forever. & Even though that scares the shit out of me, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I believe I love you. But I’ll never say it. And I hate you for making me think it. I really wish it wasnt true . Because Im truly, truly terrified. 

(via turtle-bod)

treofficial:

nastyofficial:

thislostlegacy:

I was like YEAHHH!!!!

then I saw the last one and was like

ohh……..

Honestly, if the guy’s personality is good enough to be your best friend, he should be your boyfriend. Just saying.

PRRREEEEEEEEEACHHH^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

(Source: thedoctorroseharkness, via martelmusic)

so tight i just failed this bitch ms kerwins fucking quiz -_-